Solo (draft)

Solo

She tripping... Back to back texting again
How many times do i have to lose my best friend... ME
just jumping all the time
Leap after leap off of instinct
But they dont understand a life when youre not given the chance to think
Or how i got sick when i did
And these were all the things i went thru when he was doing his bid
I wonder what wouldve happened if i died when i was shot
Or didnt make it to the end
Im not sure which man i loved
The real one or the one he pretend
And i cant comprehend, mend, or send him away
what wouldve happened if i didnt show him that loyalty
All the clues he gave me
Thought we were friends first
Its like me loving him just made him worse
I guess thats a play i didnt know to rehearse
He just didnt give a fuck about me he dont give a fuck how scary insanity be
He dont give a fuck and now i dont either
Solo again and i still say neither
I dont want to love again cause your just gonna leave
I dont wanna box with no gloves over a whore anymore i just need reprieve
Cause southpaw was all me
2 cars repoed in 1 year, one of them twice
I lost every dime and i never got any advice
And my fantasies that were supposed to be private was all in his head
But he took them and me for a trick instead
My heart so heavy right now its like straight led
I cant sleep so i tried the other side of the bed
Idk how to feel right now im just dead
Solo i tend to always to roll though
He dont know i heard every word that he said
FUCK LOVE... GIVE ME BACK MY BODY AND BREAD
I just wanna be happy love hurts
Abd Im happier making money instead
I want the Jordan 4 infrared (grey)
Not a pain i cant get out of my heart or head
Sleeping with the enemy, but im still one step ahead

Sounds like you've been hit with hard times and heartbreak. That's rough, and I can relate. It's not easy to wrote about personal issues so I applaud the bravery. Keep pushing, keep elevating. Focus on upping your vocab and the sophistication of your rhyme schemes.

Solid effort.

This was very creative
Emotions off the hook
Keep up the good work