Say it Right

Say it right

It’s a fight, like the light hate the dark
And it’s my Sight, like their sight to the mark
You either make it or you won’t
You either say it or you don’t
and it’s not one rise the other falls
Its conviction when the lesson calls
Life - you got one shot It’s not a game
Like you got one spot, and all they see is their shame
My soul knows. Always, obviously just not my mind
until I’m ready to face it, the facts my angel think I’m ready to find


But when Dark became my enemy and never told me why
Light wouldn’t protect me but never told me a lie
And heaven was dead
Plain and grey Instead
But mine was a dream just fucking with my head
I used to bang down his door
He kept me entertained but wouldn’t let them give me more
Now I fucking know
Like Whoa
I’m not sorry I asked
Just pissed off I was even masked
And you might not care as my truth unfolds
I tell you - one god will love you as the other scolds

I remember asking sacred scriptures - here?
But that was before I had to wait another year
And they mocking me
At only half they see
The General still respecting the staff Sargent
Who supposed to be my enemy
And I’m living with I let him live
No matter how sick it make me I have to forgive
5 at the triangle - nice they told me only one would be there
When I die god will tell what game they even won, not what colors to wear
Black blood wasn’t sacred - instead it was that
And when I said idc I was with god and now know I still sit where I sat

‪“Now that I’m awake I sleep walk away” I got thru it without going crazy and easy and you just left me on my own over what? Over what some psycho signed on my screen name and said? Insanity REPEATEDLY and like idgaf anymore either - NO ONE has my back and EVERYONE ‬... I always did fucking stay balanced. Now I got to feel stupid about caring or needing answers NO ONE will give me. I keep it 100 with anyone I meet at any time.

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You think I’m stupid too? 1980 mauve tiles with a double jacuzzi? You got a girl but you walking out a bar with 2 bitches? You don’t really like my dad? Oh what you met him? I’m the stupid bitch?

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I LET YOU and it’s not I will not lose it’s how the fuck nobody respects me or my stand. Attacked, judged, nightmare visions, hung then insanity - caught middle bunk from criminal mental that I STILL have - what? I’m the victim... how?

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I’m not a fucking shield for cowards like them. They shackled me to the chair hands and ankles until about 10 min before the nurses came in for asking to use the bath room.

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Is there anybody else then cause I realized content too adult

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Nah that’s all in the same night I woke up running for my life with my bday outfit and ring

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I stole a Lexus full of cash

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And my blessing was nobody got in my way the first 10 minutes so they know that then go in for more - are you even fucking kidding me? MY BORN CITY?!?!? They lured me there on purpose - they fucking did it on purpose

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And I’m the only one that cares about that

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Nah... sorry but I’m not over it

Write, right?
this keyboard is my peepee-ano
it feels good when i pee
tinkle tinkle don't you see
me?
i see you
do you see me
Alicia Keys
rapping them frees
freeze
it's so painfully cold
numbing dumbing drumming cumming
i am coming for you
i have way more flows than you will ever know
infinite
isn't it
break boundaries
or boundaries are bound to break you
ACHOO0!!!

Well I remember - at least every thing from north myrtle beach

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And then a bunch of split seconds and stuff that don’t make sense or can be one way or the other

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Yeah the girl who set me up her husbad did have a crush on Alicia Keys’s

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I don’t know I heard 3 bangs, lost 5 weeks and just remembered or looked back for once

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I haven’t been sober more then 3 days since LAST April - this isn’t me I can’t fucking deal with all this

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I don’t know what happened and didn’t even look back until the rental company called me to say they wrote off my rental - I though I ran out of gas

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I glitch out when I’m done with my boyfriends - i thought it was just realizing who he was and what he was about and I got sick again

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He was fucking the lesbian next door, doing heroine, snitching, and I found a sock too big for his kid too small for an adult all in 3 weeks after we got the studio and just lost it

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I was gong to sell just to get out of the entire situation just was still debating what to do

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Oh and sleeping with his brothers babies mom

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Ok thanks for letting me vent... I’m done

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I knew realized and accepted you weren’t that into me EARLY - that’s not what it’s about and then you play me too

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Yeah... I did like you though - even if you were white I was gonna see after what they did to me if I even could

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Nah just who are you and how are you involved, if even, that’s all - cause me tois might’ve really come back and I thought I was hallucinating

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Right after they did that and I was recovering from myrtle beach - I went insane

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Cause she woke me up outside the courthouse and I wasn’t even friends with her for 3 years that’s why I was flipping out in the cop car but again, I thought I was just hallucinating after

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She doesn’t own me, I’m not her trash can or toy and how does that even happen and how do I get them fucking birches off me

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But they did ME wrong so how

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This is twice I’m hanging out with my boys and all they BOTH talk about is the last friend I lost from sleeping with people I did. It is embarrassing but 38x to 22x - might be something more to that but idec I have real problems

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My teeth hurt almost every night, like my cuspids being torn out

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23 fucking times now - tricks just tricks

Will you be baptized in fire?
Or nod out and drown in the jacuzzi
Have you ever been with a liar?
Do you want to be in my movie?

It feels good losing
It feels good losing
It feels good losing
When ur dumb af and don’t know a single thing

24... I’m dead serious - I had to hear this girls name 24x already - which is why I’m just telling you

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I’d say at first I thought it was Satan himself only to find out just some dumb ass witches and that’s why I’m so frustrated - cause I don’t know how to get them off me or to stop sleepwalking me

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PS I respect both cause like I believe the concept of keeper of hell instead of sick sadist fuck - it’s like the ceo and president - still way Higher then me!!! AND his job has to suck - they did say it was his punishment...

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2004 the witches said to do that and I didn’t - put the word In lights but didn’t think much of it - pushed the what I thought was ghost off so idfk know how either. Well cause I asked for help but it made me sick immediately,
Closing my eyes letting go of my steering wheel - almost got hit by a tractor trailer by inches - went to a psych and he gave me pills after only taking it twice they all were gone - and stayed gone unless I ever thought about it or got close to even thinking - staying busy was my curse but I fought thru it - and now I know... COOL

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Who knew? They did it on purpose and nah I REALLY AND TRULY did not know or remember and anytime I did I thought I was hallucinating because I’m crazy

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That’s not my culture, that’s not in my nature... I know he didn’t know and I’m not mad but if someone does not make them stop it’s just wrong. WHO had the cameras in my home, and who knew before me in 2003, and yeah - I’m allergic to them bitches. It’s your zone, not mine and they use that to keep my line apart. My culture is about trust.

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My ex made over 6 figures - why was I find and not opening doors then but not now?

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That dumb ass bitch and her possy is gonna get off my body too... hurting me really is no joke. And hitting someone that can’t hit back is no respect either.

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You can check my hospital, police, and court records and match the dates yourself - I DONT HAVE TO LIE

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I do... I think SHE put the DBT9 or what ever the fuck the name was in my ice coffee and then pretended to have a head ache. It’s not attention or sympathy or even an advocate - it’s THEY DID IT ON PURPOSE!!!

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And I said NO witch - leave me and my body the fuck alone! Mind your business PERIOD!!!

YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO ME AND PUTTING ME THRU - WHY?

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He’s starting with me again

What annoys me most... is when I go to pray and hear Lord forgive me instead �� or going to type and hitting the wrong keys repeatedly or giving myself dirty looks in the mirror - they make me so sick, like they even have the rite... and I’m so tired.

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I’m not some half time switch and this isn’t a game - I just pray every day that I can just be myself again - all the time. I didn’t do anything to deserve this and I’m tired of them fucking with me. And some people understand what that means more then just the ptsd and bipolar 1 I have as a result of them coming at me since 2000.

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Or feeling like my teeth are being ripped out like it’s a joke...

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How did they even get on my body?