My Worst Nightmare

It’s been hell since you been gone
And I don’t even know what happened or if I was the one wrong
I’ll never get those years back, you already know
But I said ok at least there is pictures I can see to watch them grow
Then there go another 5yrs
It’s getting worse and worse
They act like my body is theirs worse than a curse
I don’t even want to live the torture is so bad
But I hold on to get back the things I always wanted but never had
Why do they treat me like I’m less
I really didn’t even do shit that I can’t confess
The pain is starting again, just felt their pin to my nose
I keep hearing that line and can’t think of the song describing them hoes
Did you hear how they woke me up, it’s all good My God made sure you were still there
I heard the quarter roll and he drew a pic in the air
He’s just dead slow
It’s not funny and its not a joke
It’s unforgiveable and I’m tired of their smoke
I don’t want anyone to know, I just want to try to get better again
But every time I start to feel better it just gets worse and worse in my own skin
I may not know who I am, but I know what I’m not
I remember when I let go at 120mph and God put my hands back on the wheel and said it’s still suicide I can’t fool him
So I tell myself then they can’t fool you either but they have me scared how it’s looken
I mean, all that was way before I even knew why I was crying
And if everyone hate me instead, somebody’s lying
I’m gonna try to make it to my way way way back friends house today
But I haven’t been sober or slept since 5:30, I doubt I’ll go anyway
I’ll write you back later it hurts and is gross and I’m hissing again
Back to back tweets, I’m tripping again, how many times I have to lose my only best friend
Me…