Cameron’s Voice

Cameron’s Voice

“Get shot every day b she be alright... she tough right” camrons voice

They told me it was gonna be a funeral
And I didn’t care it was mine
I heard the muffle bangs but I was already in that world and was fine
I thought I ran out of gas and just left my rental in the middle of the street
Didn’t even think to think twice until I just got home to my mom already knocking on beat
Nothing ever clicked until enterprise called me and said they wrote off the truck
I hung up confused like I ran out of gas and then remembered where we were when I got struck
Pulling in the empty parking lot asking if he was sure his mom was even there
Then back to watching him pray to Mary like that’s my favorite saint as I stare

In the ambulance I didn’t realize they were talking about me when they said she fell out of the car saying me? Shoe?
Pissed off they lied and said I wrote a suicide note that I didn’t too
Then I was singing one two Freddy coming for you 3 4 up to ten
Realizing my entire world has been beyond hell ever since then
I’m not a fucking time share

I remember getting ready that nite with a hug from behind and I looked in the mirror
The image of a ghost now finally getting clearer
When did I lose my son?
Realizing it was him on the sidelines praying as I always lost my grip
Trusting the drs telling them all as I slip

I didn’t even notice I lost 5 weeks
Or how bad I looked in that first picture that now speaks
I remember taking it like boy your fucking dead
Got to be a V it all clicked now what he said
Memories of the defrib ripping thru my throat, gurgling the blood w the nightmare of being waterboard as they sliced a GOAT

flashbacks switching channels like a remote

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Rumors... just rumors and they all just wanna be down
My ex was strung and that’s just them fucking around

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(On another note I couldn’t pull up any Camron songs on the way to the red club in the city that nite - I’m the one that said no we not hanging in Harlem with some bartenders we don’t even know) All right?