1991 - One More Try

One More Try (Timmy T)
https://binged.it/2tqynca


It’s been a long time since you met me
And I just want to tell you why
It’s in my blood, it’s all for my family
I still consider you so
I still feel my heart when you cry
If you knew how much I been thru
The facts along with even if it wasn’t true it was real to me
And I’m not talking about what they did to me in MB
And understand I’m not letting you go
I just need you to know
I rather die in, then not fight
For us… for my blood


I don’t know how else to explain it to you
I pray for us and I hope that doesn’t offend you too
Cause it seem to, to everybody else
We walk in seconds, so they hate and leave us walking dead
I’d never tell you another lie and am choosing to trust you instead
I hope I didn’t disappoint you
Because honor now is my only alibi
I remember the call, sitting staring for hours on the couch
But I’ve forgotten why…
I can’t stand pacing cause I can’t figure out how that blessing go so wrong
Like God pls tell me now cause this road without my family, my heart, been way too long


It wasn’t that I didn’t love you, I wasn’t awake
But that doesn’t mean I didn’t hear you
Just a slow walk I take
And when it gets so bad, my comfort is the memory of your embrace, still seeing the sand
Remembering the morning we woke up on the beach
So I promise I won’t be selfish or demand
And as if with every question or doubt they cast, I just wonder why
Asking the Lord why is it all so confusing as my soul cleanse thru my cry

Praying every day for one more try…

I really hate this zone, and the female who attached herself needs to leave, as well as the spirit, as well as the one on my body with pins and water - me and my heart are natural I'm almost positive so just whoa. Seriously... who and why do they demand to tear my family apart. I never broke up a family or been with a married man. and they have ME? looking as ugly as sin most the time... trying to be patient and let it all sort itself out but what I have been thru and going thru - just back up off us - I have every right to know about my own family and what happened.

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I don't feel good and being bullied around again, I'm just going to try to sleep and nah I'm not saying that either. I was having such a positive day too. I don't know what keeps going wrong and going dead opposite. Maybe you can figure it out cause I can't. Nite.