Sacred Prayer

Sacred Prayer


I don’t know much but I remember no less
And I don’t believe in a middle man when it’s time to confess
I know the difference between fact and a dream
But then they tell you anything could’ve happened in between
And I knew before I read exactly who I am and what I am supposed to be
And I’ve walked the dark road of reaching the winters freeze of insanity
(TWICE… The giggle is the worst)
Sticking to the facts, not the water splashed to embrace my face
Or the rest of the whispered seasons my roof tries to replace

The blunt of the pain and the swell of impossible
It’s all just not worth it, you should get what you give
Not 3 birthdays and many more cursed days waking up in a hospital
And the entire time everyone just fucking with me
Who think or say I’m desperate to be accepted?
The original do lo in my low low just dropping to levels they just don’t know
But then to be so disrespected
Everyone has gone too far
I never asked for a war
But I refuse to sit here, shut up, take it, or be their victim
My revenge will be planned as callous cause that was THEIR choice made by them
Not my fault or my problem.

I can’t make sense of them cause I am me
I am so different and think just as much… thru a memory
Waking up and seeing the rain stained sand I can still feel as I touch
The same sand I was so sure Jesus carries us all thru
But I can’t say for sure if I was even given that much
I told God if anyone is gonna steal my free will it’s gonna be you
But somehow since I’ve lost my faith… I guess that’s what desperation do

I’ve been dissed before plenty
Not everyone gonna like you
I’ve been pathetic before
Like when they play on a chord just like a psych do
The only time I’ve been desperate is when I was begging them to stop
They swear I lost my mean streak thru it all
Nah, I just lost my freedom to cop
You wanna see my soul? You wanna read my print?
It’s an old wives tale and I wouldn’t trade growing old even to mint
And the entire time ever since everyone just fucking with me
As a rage cries, desire dies, and I’m going to make sure my enemies are there to see
TO FEEL each and every last thing they swore they would get away with doing to me