Bonus Track 187

Bonus Track 187

I was sniffing coke, not smoking crack
Paranoid seeing shadows but more so from the attack
I had a bad dream I was getting beat and tossed around my mattress
My neighbor said the music was too loud but how cause I never listened less
I kept waking up lighting cigarettes and falling back to sleep
Hearing voices, seeing wires, and the way the yankee gas man was looking at me
When I fucked him that night I was staring at gold eyes over the bed
But when he started talking like a Texan is when I got scared and lost my head
15 years later theyre still kicking my ass
I guess it’s all the bull shit the lesson brings when you can’t even remember the class

I didn’t know I had kids but if that’s why I put all the dishes and silverware on the porch then ok
Cause at the time I just assumed it’s cause I was cray
I was at the bar and thought I saw Mariah
Took a sip of my drink then started spitting fire
But really what started it most was the 222 story on my Nextel
I heard him laughing in the background so it didn’t go over well
Threw my phone in the bushes and went to kick his ass
He saw the circles in my notebook and started to laugh
I had to move back home when he left me
Because always being alone and scared made me more crazy
You shoot at me for no reason you should be in jail but theyre not
Instead they proceed to get worse and even get away with having me shot