I still remember the first time...the worst time
When I felt what it was like, to disregard and disperse life
With no regret or remorse...no recourse, emotionless
No understanding for what my notion is
Cursing myself in silence...motionless
What'd she do to provoke this act of atrociousness?
As I grabbed her throat, and sat on her chest
Tied her wrists to the bedposts
And carved a tear in both of her breasts
Appalled and distressed...stuck in this agony
Enthralled with a helplessness
As I hauled back and slapped her cheek
After that it was bleek
This girl's book of life
Was one the fate's would no longer be writing in
As I pierced her heart with the knife
Without thinkin about or deciding it
Not even realizing it
How can I break this spell?
While her breasts cried with the blood
Of tears no longer inside of myself
Caged in a Hell
That's enveloped with thoughts..indulged with distraught
When I know I should stop and hope to get caught
Please let me be locked up
By all means, destroy the key
But it's all just a ploy for a dream
With no happily ever after
Engulfed in the Devil's laughter, as it resounds through the rafters
Of this warehouse...forgotten about
Where I torture my victims
In a manner soldiers never had the stomachs to carry out
Morbid to these horrors now
With no control over what the woes of my will were
Sulking, cold and alone..
In the shadow of a serial killer