"Don't stay up all night"
The last words from a person. First words of my morning.
Is it just me or does this incandescency get heavier
every minute?
Like a perpetual weight.
Probably.
When I think about our conversation,
it seems like only yesterday. In fact it was -
just yesterday. Which brings me on to
our conversation, yesterday, about how
the last time we seen eachother seems like
yesterday, except that was yesterday.
When in fact it's been two weeks.
I found this interesting, I guess you could say
that you're an inspiration. But regardless, where's
my short term memory?
It's like I just got off the bus one day, (forgetting it)
and it's sat there in to my seat, chilling.
Waiting to be returned to me.
I wonder if some bloke's picked it up
and taken it home as his own...
So anyway it's probably safe to say, that with
lack of sleep, weight gain, short breath, sweating,
no memory, liver pains, back ache, headaches,
spots, and increased stress...
I should probably detox.
My memory needs it, and so -
(being self critical)
does my esteem.
Where do you fit in?
You're my detox!
Smiling, I want you to journey across
places in me that otherwise only drugs can satisfy.
Stroke your hand across my forehead and
break the static of stress,
Find and wipe the grit from my ticking, rusted
engine and my gears are sure to follow.
I need a lift, a tow.
I'm basically in a bad place.
Doped up smoking boozing waking up in police stations.
It's only made more ironic by your choices,
only so much more by the conversation we had,
just yesterday.