I had lost the taste for alcohol and gained the taste for love.
If I was nineteen, I wasn't just bitter, I was biting; I was a dog.
Never just winter I was the dry stricken, stinging, stinking fog.
I was always the one inside the fire but never the burning log.
The Man who seemed preened to be a beast but never a hog.
Cunning, & so colourful; so wonderful, but as green as a frog.
Swimmin in the sod of his own groundhog days,
& pacing against the waves in a daze & a strop.
His taste was swapped for a waist so cropped.
Such a waste of a crop when his face dropped.
His legs hopped from one stop of a bedknob to one drop of head nod.
He felt on top outside; so high. Inside he sobbed but it came out dried.
Surviving on nothing if not their throbbing thighs, & their sobbing cries.
He felt supersized; so juvernized; & so un-utilized.
Beauty lies in none but our most unlikely of places;
It's disguised in faces. It is revised, but lied through graces.
It's not taste. It's not wise to waste it, but it is wild; is basic.
I didn't leap through the fog because I was a bitter, biting dog,
or worse, because it hurt to be burning black inside like a log .
Still wore the fleece of a beast that would only turn to the hog,
but I was the same running forth as I was running stray & free,
& so I set to change something before something changed me.
Her cheeks were rosey, her teeth were braced to be guarded by metal,
& she had told me her feet would choose the heart on which shed settle.
She was as hard as rose petals. She was ridiculously pure & strictly sure.
She was in me before I could sink, & swim & claw my way back to before.
I was cast by her laugh & I always came back laughing & asking for more.
She was happy acting happy & she knew she had me but had to be sure.
She outlived all of my wars & so then licked all my sores.
She couldn't live more for me as I could live all for yours.
She showed me here core built on dreams, stars & straw,
& I showed her mine,
built upon the seams of this heart of this bore; of this beast;
Of this dog left with the only breath in this fog from his voice.
I can now tell that I have stopped acting coy to show the strength of this man,
It's now all in the scent on this watchstrap, as it's gone & dropped off my hand.
J.J - Rest In Peace
Jonathon - Operation Overload