I think from where we are from we understand more and judge less.
We can appreciate the fact that hey we are not perfect but we are trying our best.
We appreciate that life can pick up and change directions at any given moment… so I guess we learn to live for the day, knowing that tomorrow is not promised.
And in the memory of those who have fell, we tip bottles to pay homage.
In youth, there’s hardly a past and the future is never ending, unpredictable, an open door way.
And if at times it appears we don’t hear what you say, we just really have to watch which moves we play.
Whether it be ignorance or for better word - lack of awareness… cause when we grow we up realize there is just too much to lose.
And sometimes we feel we just didn’t have too many directions to choose.
Sometimes we are not as willing to compromise as much or take that leap of faith cause at times it has evaded.
Unless you’ve been guided in faith you don’t realize he’s not gone just temporary faded.
There is hope – because we have to hope that there are / at least can be / many more days coming.
And don’t try to understand because we definitely march to the beat of different drumming.
But at the same time in living for today – you are not necessarily expecting a tomorrow.
And sometimes we do some pretty weird things to conquer that sorrow.
A goal not attained is not that big of a deal – cause we just find another one.
All the while we keep it real with who we are while just trying to get it done.
Possibilities. Endless possibilities. That’s all we hear.
But tell that to me during drill day when I got to channel and conquer that fear.
I think back to survival mode – and it wasn’t ever all that bad “we survived through the bad parts” on auto pilot, whether that be angels that carried us or something of the other sorts
We made it to fight another day.
Looking back like damn – how did it get done doing it that way?
I guess when it comes to people like us – we shouldn’t look back – cause when we do it leaves us with so many questions. Too many questions. Every move scrutinized and under attack.
We appreciate that nothing and no one is perfect
Even though at times we feel we don’t deserve it.
But until that bell has rung, Im a live forever young.
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"I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." ~Marilyn Monroe
