Light up
All night I been bugging
Body switching making me so sick
90 out of 99 nites I wish I can just wake up and die
Nobody give a fuck, Cause they swear my skin is that thick
Hissing... just hissing in my own body
Guess I gotta find another 12 gauge shotty
How they even knew I paused like that to begin with... triangle
Tell me how this come of stars - star SPANGLED was always my angle
I Sniffed so much cocaine I wanna throw up
Please don’t make me live like this instead and if you do I demand a prenup
Open ACE up - 20 years later I hear it everywhere
On public display without even a say and nobody care
They don’t do it for me, they want it for themselves
And I don’t like the story or the photo album I left for them on the shelf
When have you ever been nice to or helped me
I even offered to switch
Cause you didn’t wanna know and knowing didn’t phase me
And you just mad I caused another 99 problems bitch
I guess that was just phase 3
probably when you all agreed without me
Good deads go punished
You sound so stupid
Yet that’s what was published
And my angels were Cupid
How I even got caught in your circle
Swaying like Celie was in the color purple
I can’t even run in the dark no more
And these chains are so heavy sometimes I forget what I’m even fighting for
Feeling like New Orleans when nature popped the Levy
The angels won’t let go and they won’t part either now they making me feel too heavy
Stuck in the middle like which side - NEITHER
They won’t give me comfort they won’t let me die in peace
That’s why you’re so scared to sleep while you brag about buying - bitch, nah... I swear you lease
And they can make me switch and contemplate again that quick
Lacing me repeatedly replaying the conflict
I promise you I’ll never look back on this day and be grateful
and nah I wasn’t always faithful
I told him I caught him when he said not everything that glitters is gold when introducing me
I said Nah it’s just guilding but that assumption getting kinda old
especially when I am what you see
I got this bitch on my back and I ain’t seen comfort in years
I wonder whose choice it was to serve me all my fears
And ghosts everywhere tapping but they not mine anymore
5 years ago I woke up and I can’t understand how or why I even got on this side for
What? It was a fake delusion of comfort before, before they came after and always made it the worst
So tell me what name do I call god when when none of them even have to pay or lay in a hurse
You can’t say I never sustained
So tell me who was worth so much more
to let you pull my net worth for
I’m not 2 sided truth is I never knew
And only when guided is how I ever made it thru
I cried to a purple storm while he told me about his daughter
I’m still not sure if she mine 9 years later in that order
I can’t believe you got him to hang me on those chains even though I know he never knew
How they even held me up like a shield like I ever even confirmed it was true
And I’m not the one praying for forgiveness yet I hear them too
They even sound like me how much more you gonna let them do?
Tell me how it feel now that you know I stole a cats eye
You should know I’m not the type to submit maybe one day someone tell me why
I don’t need an alibi, at least not for the past 18 years - it’s all been recorded right?
Tell why me choosing my own side give them so many fears
Or what I ever even did to lose everyone else’s god given rite
Bitch it’s been hell for years
You leave me at gross
It’s all good, I ain’t shedding tears
I just bleed the most
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