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    Heaven or Hell

    Heaven or Hell


    The things that we do just to make it through
    Have you wondering what the fuck was I supposed to do
    I believe in God AND the other fallen angel…
    But I can’t punk out cause I see the other Stalin (stallen) angle
    Can’t believe in one without the other
    It’s like turning on my own fucking brother
    It’s like comforting a widow or a grieving mother
    Knowing, you still know another
    Well I was just trying to make sense of it all
    They chose to live life up and I chose to ball
    They look down on you and try to make you look small
    I don’t know who he is, but believe me I know his call
    When it’s torture I do a line just to numb up
    When it’s Fortier I play the ditz just to dumb up
    Use my 4.0 for these streets and the plans I can drum up
    And I ain’t got a team no more, dolo on the come up
    Street sweeper, cleaning all the scavenger scum up
    My pen, it turns into a ouji
    Weeding cowards out like water out of a squeegee
    The eyes in back of me
    Have always been eyes that only I can see
    They bring me comfort in my terrors throughout the night
    I hear the whisper as if children cry like a lullaby when I’m searching without the light
    And it ain’t pretty, and it ain’t cute
    And where I am going I hardly dispute

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    I manned up, I started banging bullies on their backs
    Get my fortune read to forewarn of attacks
    To make it thru I used to drive with burners under my seat
    I ran so much that I deserve the credit for flooding the street
    And don’t you think I feel bad for evading that pod
    But life equals up somehow to uneven the odd
    The 3 little pigs, spent their careers tryin to squeeze me
    3 in the hole and I got one just for popping breezy
    And you look at me and think my life is all fucking easy
    At any given moment we can be called just to appease he
    And you know Valhalla’s fable
    And there’s no doubt I am eating at that table
    I know the power of my spirit horse when drilled in life and death
    And I am on borrowed time so you best believe my brethren get my last breath
    I know I suffer in the next so let me be free now
    And I ain’t trying to repent cause we reep what we sow
    Hell of a decision, die, kill, or go to jail
    Either way we set up to fail
    So what do you believe in? … heaven or hell
    I think the la de dah church shit got most folk under a spell
    I mean whose to say whose story they tell
    I mean, let’s just be real why else the angel fell
    I wanna hear two sides, please tell me a book was written
    It’s all stories just like the little kitten that lost it’s mitten

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    Judged for the things we do
    Judged by who
    Judged by everyone
    Judged these days even if you legally own a gun
    Judged by your past, for the past shit you done
    You even judged if you stand firm or you decide to run
    Judged for your son, judged for your daughter
    Ok by you all I don’t believe in that order
    The order to tall
    So give me the chains and strap me to that wall
    All because I jumped in when I heard a prisoner call
    And if we all write, then we all right
    A gift of intellect, use it for sight
    Use it for peace, use it for the fall
    Use it at least, but when you do – just give it your all
    And I can go on for 100 fucking bars
    But I know in the end when I wake up it’d be in fucking MARS
    Never fear God cause a true leader doesn’t use fear just to lead you
    Never fear the devil, cause believe me he see through
    Fear no man, only what fear just what you might do
    And judge no one for what they do just to get thru.
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    Re: Heaven or Hell

    Betrayed! Now I’m rethinking EVERYTHING - and I am 4 stroke... been to heaven, been to hell, been to jail, and graduated college - I resent you all even speaking to me but if he let you
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    Re: Heaven or Hell

    I guess I already upped it.
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    Re: Heaven or Hell

    There's different reasons that parents can be absent. And it hurt me to remember that. Was hoping for the now cause they're still here but know the odds of that too. Especially having such a hard time getting back in my own zone. I'll never stop fighting though... my babies... and I am the one that got them here so I'm proud of that too. … And trust me, for my loss, I hope they get any and everything they ever need or want. All I ever wanted was my own family and that's how sometimes you can not appreciate or can take advantage of the blessings you did get. Cause you wanted and needed that more even if it meant welfare (not a coffee pot). No way, no how... and like whoa - I'm here alone and for nothing now. Everything's changed. I just want to make sure my one's that are here... Did you have them the entire time?
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    Re: Heaven or Hell

    4 stroke...

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    That’s why I hate when you lock up my pieces... sometimes I need to remind myself who I was to remind myself who I am now. I’m most pissed about my wu track 10. My ex Ced used to remind me who I was - the closest one to me and straight betrayed. Now I have to remind myself.
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    Re: Heaven or Hell

    You sure you want this?
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    Re: Heaven or Hell

    Not the same Meek OBVIOUSLY just ironic... @frankiemc but still it made me think of you. Feel better.

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    My homegirl one day said to me "I believe that you believe that, that happened" I was PISSED cause I wasn't lying. But either way if he did or if he didn't I KNOW it can happen and how bad people are treated and disrespected in mental. Don't judge, don't assume, just understand how humiliating it is to just spit some shit out. I'm grateful and believe the site has been REAL tolerant. I know I'm tired and ready to stop tripping for one.
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    Re: Heaven or Hell

    4 stroke… and I found strawberry Phillys for weed but I’m thinking about stepping out that arena again… idk

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    I’m gonna be pacing all night and here I thought I was doing so good to maintain mentally like… same spirits same fight and idgaf NO! In fact anyone even friends with them stay away from me. Idk what them bitches was doing but they was doing something on a serious to betray me… but then when you go and demand - like no resolution possible just seperate!

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    Just a lot on my mind and the more I don’t feel like myself the worse I get to the point like… no discipline really. Like… I have work tomorrow I didn’t mean to fuck up today but my day 2 broke down so I had to leave early after being 30 minutes late… then my personal situation bothering me and my sleep… but it’s 3am and I’m still up here anyway cause I know I’m not going to be able to sleep anyway.
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    It’s a toss up between Mocking Bird and So Bad that are my faves… but I name the song Untiteld - SOULD
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    As much as I hallucinate and see him…
    I’m willing to take that chance

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