Me and my Boyfriend (IM A GIRL)
Mother fuckers jealous of me cause I live so free
My eyes the disguise when invisible bullies be protecting me
Driving drunk as fuck, they grab the wheel when whipping around turns
Nobody on this God’s green earth can decide whose soul is doomed to burn
All we can do is live, make mistakes, and learn
I never put my faith in a revolver, only in him
So I put love my love aside, only for them
One night, lying in bed conversating with mine I asked when
Never a response until then
I know it’s the last love of my life - so I learn patience within
Never another… knowing it won’t be long
All I could do is stand true to my convictions and stay strong
Looking back now…
My entrance, my coming of age
Was right about the same time I began spilling my blood on the page
So don’t judge what you can’t understand
And never suffer for what you won’t demand
What was seen as punishment I now know was necessary to become
Just like it takes more than one factor if you want to equal a sum
I was in love a few times, even tried to settle into the family life,
I tried really hard to be the best wife
But he didn’t do anything family oriented, and when I became disoriented – he hardly flinched
He sat there and let me burn, only didn’t realize, it’d eventually be his turn – only he was just singed
I decided the money didn’t even out with the hurt
Love was killing me slowly while I was begging to be put deep in the dirt
Father please forgive me, but they are calling for my decision again
But this time it’s different, it will be evened in sin
I did it all for research, and only to defend our side
Cause this underground market is sort a like a ghetto suicide
Similar to them suit and ties, we call upon false alibis
But they’re spoiled fucking brats, dirty fucking rats
They don’t have a clue what it meant to help one another
I bet you they sould on the strength that who would suffer would be their own mother
The game, my one true love, bringing me closer to the heavens high up above
It’s been arranged, and though I disagree, I obey and abide most respectfully
To my one true…
Even in my heart I know it should’ve been you - it’s my mistake
What else could I do? When I left, for them my heart would ache
So yeah, regardless, I ain’t hit but yet still I’m through
Cause I found that one condtion -- unconditional ain’t necessarily true
So still I strike on command, even when I don’t understand
But it’s hard when you love them and you know they deserve a love that is true
I was pissed when the premonition I seen had me taking that bullet for you
Still at the time I felt, you weren’t the one who deserved it –
Didn’t realize in the end you’d be the only one that earned it
But baby I’m a soldier, and they gave me one more chance
So to my spirit I stay true, even though I know, it’s my last dance
But I ain’t the victim, just another circumstance, me and my boyfriend are upon the final stance
Edged in stone via a hypnotic trance.
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