Finishing up my shift in five, mind is tied to tonight's surprise,
my brother turns twenty nine, awaiting the city lights and stripper's eyes.
Clocking out as my phone rings, my nephew appears on the caller ID,
it's a quarter to three... he should be in class instead of bothering me.
I answer hesitantly, "hey buddy, sorry but I'm a tad busy..."
listening as he sobs, my jaw cringes and locks, "...dad was fishing..."
Apparently he took too much vicodin and his body couldn't handle it,
after minutes of silence and rubbing my eyelids, I tried to channel this.
"Okay kid, I'll be there to get you soon so hang out with your friends,"
my fist's clenched, head throbbing from this tense pinch on both ends.
Tears soaking my beard as I try to disappear unseen by my boss,
stuck thinking about my loss, panicking for my keys like they're lost.
Driving over the speed limit, I see visions of us laughing,
so hard to breathe this in, like I'm beneath waves that keep crashing.
I fail to notice the police sirens or the train before it smites my car,
head bouncing in dismay... my dreams display our lives in the stars.
We're sitting on a boat, feet in the sea, my brother leans in to speak,
"take care of my son, you schmuck," gives me a hug and dives into the deep.
I keep searching but the ocean's black, I'm afraid to leave someone behind,
and I can feel my emotions stack as the weight begins to bludgeon my spine.
A warmth on my chest, my nephew shakes me back to life,
I'm sore but blessed, embracing his love like it's the last I'll find.
A couple weeks after the funeral, I take him to a beautiful spot on the pier,
"your dad and I loved it here," he smiles while he drops his gear.
we share a couple laughs, catch some fish and talk with ease,
- I unfold my chair then relax...
he does the same and together we gaze across the sea.
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