Theres a big difference between taking a stand/
And standing to man up/
Between taking a chance/
And chancing to take it/
Between havin it made/
and having to make it/
Catching and chasing/
Now you DO have to reach to achieve/
But you don't achieve just cus you reach/
You can't sow what you reap/
when growth isn't shown in each and every seed/
See the distance is greater/
when the meaning is deep/
But if you continue to just dreaming/
You'll stay stuck asleep/
They say talk is cheap/
But I traded my well being for a handful of conversation/
Resulting in a lack of speech/
Now how the hell do i express myself?/
Self proclaimed isolation/
Yes Im to blame, and if that lessens my name then I guess Im just shameless/
Charged it to the game/
But I dont see a way to reach my destination/
So let this be my proclamation of a duration of aimless/
hate, rage, and anger/
engaged for displacement/
See I've hurt alot of different people/
A whole lot of different ways/
But In those cases I still managed to make it through the days/
Part art, part insane/
However, apart from the same/
Rehearsed words I display/
Today I came playing a different sound/
No, this time I refuse to let my knees hit the ground/
Cus for every pound of pressure/
Measured by my weathered heart/
Every last second spent together/
Every single moment We've been apart/
Every time I left your head riddled in doubt/
If I could I would never show you/
How it feels to hold the fault/
In all that tore us apart/
And even if you can understand how sorry I am/
Or what its like living life, when you know in your soul you are not a Man/
Tearing at the seams from all of the things I NEED to say to you/
So why am i beating around/
Why do I keep shutting my mouth/
Avoiding anyone close to me/
Actively shutting them out?/
Because Ive figured it out./
In addition to dragging this out/
for fear of the now/
Despite losing count of the hurt that amounted when I was around/
That accounts for a large portion of self loathing/
It hurts just knowing that this gross of hoping is just slowing me down/
There is no copeing with being the joke that poked holes in your whole being/
baring my teeth barely able to bare the weight of defeat/
I wouldn't dare to pretend that I didn't care/
or expect anyone to spare some relief/
Ill just wear this blank stare/
fully aware of how unfair it is to you for me keeping it up, tryin to keep you around/
I cant promise this is the end of me letting it out/
I just need you to know/
Aside from everything I have broken/
How I feel about ME for failing you/
Just incase you couldn't tell/
I let myself down as well/
Well its just as well/
My inhales expose/
and provoke a choke in my throat/
Ill try to stop with imposing on you/
Ill commit to this road that I chose/
Dispose of my emotions/
Wish you luck/
Pray you achieve all of your goals/
I guess I can go, without any closure/
We wont have the need to exchange our good-byes/
I'll just ignore whats unspoken and accept as a fact/
that all beautiful things must come to a close/