Love bytes 2
"They say it isn't true love if you just throw it about and me I always was that just touch and see..."
You? You were never afraid to get in the moment
And me? I didn't realize people just wanted to own it
It was harsh when I realized I wasn't the only one
Just sitting back and watching wondering if those looks meant you were done
The things I love most like your beautiful eyes and how they can speak
Or your balance of heavy emotion w grace and unnoticed where I always was weak
Incognito...
Was it love?
The comfort of your soul castes out like a steal cast to shield the inner pain
Indestructible on the outside but such comfort inside like finally to heal my brain and just think
How your perfectly even imperfect to remind me you're still human
Every hair and cell placed just so to remind of different things and How i hate the thought of blending a few men
The nurture and the love balancing all my annoyances and quirks
And how delicately you can turn my awkward jerk to the most elegant twirk
Must've been love but it's over now...
These are all the things I can remember about why I thought it was love thru the split seconds and deletions
And especially the wait and came back that's beyond rare evidentially just I'm not sure of our completion
And then the fears to lose all that in the same man again
And the reminder of how I didn't even make one friend
"I don't want to touch you too much baby, cause making love to you might drive me crazy"
I'm off and it's all the misunderstandings of my own soul and with others how even at my best try it was always just a settle but I needed more of a goal
And now it leaves me unsettled because for once everything is different
And the push and the pull isn't helping it's adding to the distance
I mean is it love? But it's over now...
Cause for once in another person its exposure to potentially more then just core pain
And then I get annoyed and scared cause your silence can make me pace and drive me insane
It's putting your all in one... rather then slicing them out
because then one less and the rest balance again with less doubt
and it's easy to be done
And that's always what dating was about... before
Just walking confused knowing nothing about love or that door
And I feel like anyone but me while they demand my sleepwalk even more 💔