Lacrime Di Stelle Senza Speranza

A cool breeze brushes my hair resembling my mother
Remembering the subtle beauties of never-ending wonder
Surrendering to southern duties, assembling a shutter
That loosely used to cover the center of a puncture
Gloomy sky scenery has my eyes weakening at dawn
In the greenery, a fawn frozen, in disbelief I stood still
Reasoning with God, it’s been weeks in this fog
Traveled for so long, as I long for the piece of me that’s gone
The decency, the evening, the meaning to me & mom
The grieving & the demeaning deepening of calm
Is deceiving, shameful to blame you for leaving me & all
Believing you are strong knowing you look ill
The pain is eating me inside, you left peacefully as time
Dreaming I hope to find that connection frequency
I conveniently let die, my misplaced anger was secretly denied
When I got the call I barely had the decency to cry
But there I was, kneeling at your side reaching for a sign
As your breathing had subsided, I seemingly combine
All the hate I ever spewed came speedily to mind
Beating myself up over the years of broken hearts
Ignored texts, phone calls, appearing over loss
We were poison, it’s the fear of the unknown that’s hard
My world shattered with tears of hopeless stars
Wherever you are, I’m here with open scars
That’s how I imagine it’ll happen when we’re near to afar