I Don’t Want to Know


🎼 “Just can’t believe it’s real”

(Read over the words)

The beat to “Ready or Not”
Most times music say a lot
I never knew but now I know it’s true
Then to realize why I hypothetically picked you
Before I assumed the long shot
And was happy with the shot out I got
As I repeat “I know not”
But when you’re left standing there
Yo keep that second string position I don’t even care
And if everyone was there watching to see
Or was it the second time what most people are just given went and upped and left me
Born on 26th not adopted until the 28th
My first day was alone and let it be known God is my faith
What ever his name be I really don’t know
And that’s just my one to grow

🎼 oh baby

“Left with out an ally in an echelon” I wrote that before
But when flip came to judge I ain’t have an angel praying for me no more
What did I do to not get an Ally?
Heard you, just thought I was hallucinating - screamed and threw out my ear piece...
That’s why
I still don’t know if it was really you or if you ever even cared
But in my safe zones my comfort was always pretending you were there
Getting better from every break or assault I blacked out or forgot
I had these 2 watch over me giving me strength thru the fear I face alone to not

🎼 (And if he taught you better then me.... xxx)

.... after Puffys rap

Then the teaching, grabbing my ring and running but not knowing why
No one was there, you didn’t care, my soul was just telling my mind a lie
I don’t deserve to be that 4 in a group of all 10s
I don’t deserve to be the one faking an amends
And then wondering back to when I was safe
Everyone now reminding me thick skin is just chafed
Did everyone see but me?
Were strangers watching assuming what I see or be
I found angels in the darkest corners
Don’t be scared to stand now the horsemen are the warners
Love never lasted
Maybe I expect too much
Alone from day one is real
But it’s not what forced me to be out of touch
Especially when only the rare few can even hold you
You can keep my second string position cause I quit - I thought I already told you
Just some basic things I just be going thru
And just some basic things I just be knowing too