Listen to Your Heart
Dear Em,
When I woke up my battery was at 8% today
I fell asleep at 100, never even charged it and it jumped to 10% any way
The first time I tried that blood orange effen I lost it, texted him & screamed needle all night
So how still matic turned to that, youre wrong, but how you can’t understand why I fight
They just turned the font of my computer the other day, just now deleted all my explorers
If its not one way its the other and I’m just trying to explain it to my daughter
I will not fold, I will not submit, and it’s not because I’m just throwing a fit
Put me In jail for what? After 19 years and all this splicing and photoshop they still can’t hold one bit
And anything else they got is just a front
C
I was in my office when they were all talking about Juno, glitched and just went crazy within a day but you know
Its just that every path they try to walk me, they give me any except the one that does it comfortably
And I’m holding on to “just when she gets everything she wants she dies;” the part when droid was driving by
And that may be the way its supposed to be and perfect but all this got me wondering why
I might be from a New World order where we don’t order or I may have it just as fucked up as they assumed illuminati
My triangle say they lied when they said they told their spouse it was a suicide and that maybe all me
Those are my babies, theres not an animal in this world that can ever dismiss those instincts
As I jump thru zone to zone, looking back, for just a chance to think
C
Once I figure out how to just cut this rope so they all fall back and just snap, while they stay tied to me, lying on me, relying on their map
I just cant understand how anybody lets them, or how being strong in the end makes you weak
When I dropped the pen and finally remembered I could hardly even speak
I thought it was finally an answer and my nightmare was over as my phone betrayed me for 4 years straight thru torture
And if it finally kills me in the end, then just torch her – I mean me
So they can’t pretend it wasn’t because I finally knew they were selling me too
I don’t have a cup of witches brew, while they all just watch and laugh and remind me daily there is nothing I can do