Fix You (Loosing my Mind)
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I was 25 years old when I was diagnosed completely still there
I knew the implications of my illness then, I was completely aware
As I began to watch myself fade away…
The person who I was to finding who I am now
I assumed it a punishment, maybe arrogance some how
Remembering who I was before I got sick
Like I’m still in here but no one sees that they only see the brick
That was thrown, 16 years later and its so progressed I cant even live on my own
She’s tripping back to back texts again, how many times do I have to lose my best friend? … Me
And the disrespect that comes after or for all who have laughed
I didn’t cry to God or beg they see the rod or the staff

(Lights will guide… and I will try to fix you)

I still respect myself, now not even the drs think I have that right
But every time I fall, I find my fire within to fight
Walking back in to work my 3rd time 5 weeks out will humble you no doubt
I couldn’t do it any more
So I decided to reprioritize my life, cause it’s short and you only get one to live
Lessons learned? One time, then NEVER forgive

(Lights will guide… and I will try to fix you)

I can’t make excuses for who they are because I didn’t know how I’d be if it didn’t happen to me
And I can’t make excuses for all, but maybe one day I can make someone see
I don’t know how long it is before I am completely gone
Every break gets longer and stronger so I put it to song
Then I go back and read and remind myself who I am again
Of everything it took from me, I still have my pen

~ Z ~