Honestly
When I heard I assume it was why I was running to the church
Here… under my umbrella – ok, so now I’ll search
Then to the liquor store who wouldn’t give me a drink
And if you ever saw Constantine you’d laugh – it’ll make you think
My throat was closing so I stole for ONCE since and stole a drink
To either be struck by lightening or a car idek I couldn’t even think
One more store I tried to tell them to stop, and now you know why I won’t talk to big pop
Calming down to some pepsi while they were on the phone with my ex
To waking up the next day – like yeah – I’m crazy – It can’t be real at best
“If you want me to stay I’ll never leave you won’t play for real it’s just me and you – can’t count the ways that I feel you and can’t sleep for days if I don’t see”
How do I feel now or assume then?
IDK just always kept it real with the results way back when
Sorry…
“And can’t sleep for days if I don’t see you”
And I know you don’t care so much BUT
Again and again I’m left out of touch
And I don’t need you to show me mercy
Cause out of everything they do and did – it’s just how the curse be
Do I regret it? No – but now I just want to go
Sould is some real shit, they really hitting me to get their way
I guess I tried to buy the stairway to heaven even though I knew the misery
“And I’m scared, cause I’m this and of you & be forever and I’m just hoping me and you stay together”
And all our enemies paving the way
And I was gonna settle then, and then I was gonna settle with him
And then I just said fuck love – make this money
Then I got shot and everything go twisted while they think it’s funny
What did I even make it for if my kids hate me too
And who my soul fighting with that my mental don’t even have a clue
It’s true… I am, but you knew that too
I gave my position back and yeah it was all over you
Life just gets worse and worse, especially when I’m sick and stuck in their curse
I trusted too much, I accepted reality for what it be – and always knew I’m not as pretty
I can’t stand by your side – you ever see a pic of me at a long shot
And like every lie or rumor and now I can’t even say it’s not
I made a list, everything I needed and everything was you
Then to wake up and realize why after tracing in the sand I miss you
Nah… I miss 2 – and every other blood this genocide took with it too