So I write
Every second to get me thru the fight
Not for last words said
Cause every night I go to bed
I pray for death
To save my last breath
To whisper get back up to you
Cause me? Me I’m just thru
There is no salvation there is no rise
There is no reason for them to despise... me
How do you not know me?
In every example I showed you what’s free
There is no coming back
There was no reason for their attack
You don’t understand it’s already over
Just time wasting out the days I can’t even face sober
And in every minute lost
I understand the cost
I just can’t believe god sacrificed me
To a bunch of sick fucking freaks that demanded to be
For what? For me to never know?
To never even trust what you really feel or show?
Nah...
just another lost one gone again
Hearing unfaithful ring thru my ears like I was ever even was from sin
Now and then I get a few moments of comfort
Only to face the hell and second guess the number
Cause all I wonder is like...
Did god do me best
I wasn’t ever a shield; I was a vest
So like there’s so many times I could’ve went down again
But here I stand hanging from the poplar again instead
I pray for death (do you even understand that)
I pray for...
To a place where my body is my own
And no one can look at or touch me without me never knowing
To a place where you get what you give
And the guilty die and the innocent live