That is what I looked like the day I came back home to my moms house 5 weeks later from the hospital
Insanity is much like someone being 3 steps before what your mind can process at best optimal
I looked into the camera with a look of boy you are fucking dead
But then got my ass kicked and degraded even more instead
Thru every nightmare occurrence prior I had an angel I would talk to
Angels on my roof to comfort and I would just write my way through
He got out of my car and I was 30 minutes away 1 second after
Hearing 3 muffled bangs leaving my rental in the middle of the road - never hearing the laughter
They left me in an empty office park, I remember pulling in like there are no cars are you sure your mom is even here
But I never comprehended being shot until months after when the rental company called to say they wrote it off so lets just be clear
I hung up and said why would they write it off if I just ran out of gas
Then I remember the dr that day and saying ow rubbing the 3 scars when I tried to go back to rapbattles class
Way later all the memories and life line finally clicked
But to land in it all at once, it was when I flipped
Everyone still jokes and says "You tough, right"
Yeah... I am and still harder than that bitch you can tell how I write
And you know it's real Ray
I was watching you pray... "I really don't like Mary but"
But what?
Then to come at me so hard after... that's whats up