What’s life? A series of events, breaths and moments?
Periods of stress and test, and memories you cant hold in
I’ve been molded into the antitheses of beauty in my eyes
only to look to my grandmother and see perfection arise
im mesmerized at her wisdom that resides deep inside
while past acts as a caged bird jealous at the way time flies
her linear lines try to express experiences I cant relate
every crevice placed on her face has a story with a date
it’s her superior interior that exfoliates the dismay away
she takes grey days and paints portraits to end disarray
her eloquent images portray a brilliance that’s unmatched
on depths of sincerity the surface hasn’t been scratched
I wish I could drift back to our long walks by the creek
capture your essence, hold your picture and never blink
sit on the porch at sunset and watch you sip your drink
have you help me with my homework and see you think
I wish I would have seen you, because now I cant
and decant my soul when you could hear my rant
cherished our times instead of take them for granted
appreciated the fact that you made my life enchanted
how I wish..... how I wish...........
Unfathomable is the healing power of your graceful touch
I used to rest for an eternity in your hugs I loved so much
I indulged in the scent of nurture when in your grasps
smells of roses and mint seemingly made my heart collapse
in fact you were my compass, an everlasting north star
now when im in search of happiness I look where you are
I’ve softened I often cry to the skies, hoping you see me
your presence seems fleeing and loneliness is stampeding
sometimes I speak to the wind, wishing it was your breath
now I think before decisions, wanting to follow your steps
prey we could share times together, not reflect on the past
lose myself in your eyes and float off hearing your laugh
I smile at last reminiscing on times that I often hide from
while you kept my shoes tied, looping laces under your thumb
forever seemed like laying on my back, with feet on your lap
but for you I’d give up all just to get that one moment back
I wish I would have seen you, because now I cant
and decant my soul when you could hear my rant
given you everything pertaining to love in my capabilities
not write metaphors so life doesn’t seem so empty for me
how I wish.... how I wish.........
Through revelations of sustained sensations I found bliss
wished I could bring you back to revisit times I missed
now my mentality switched cuz you were here all along
it’s useless speaking soliloquies, writing poems and song
I know reciting psalms wont put my hand in your palm
continuously trying burnt my heart like napalm in Vietnam
I’ve accepted your exist, while serenity came unexpected
it’s a hard pill to swallow, I digested were still connected
and though I know I cant see you you’re a living legend
breathing, smiling, I can feel you watching me from heaven
I cant bring the past back, and the past includes you
but I can live a suitable life, just like you wanted me to
it’s impossible to change what’s already been done in life
it’s a pointless strife like trying to cut water with a knife
it still makes my heart hurt knowing I cant touch yours
I wish I could rewind time, but those feelings I must ignore
I wish I would have seen you, because now I cant
and decant my soul when you could hear my rant
I wish you could see me grow and kiss me once more
it’s because of you I know what Im living this life for
I wish.... I wish......
We could meet again...
Love, your snuggles
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