A Soldiers Sorrow
I can’t take it and the end cant bear to see it
my whole life wasted on fighting for myself shits orthopedic
not one to give up and welcome such failure but to my surprise
I have face defeat this time and tears of sadness fall heavily from my eyes
I can’t do it no more, fighting a war I cant win
To all who looked up to a nigga, shit, I’m sorry again
It’s been a long Rhode in this life but now all must end
Because that little flame inside has been blown out from this stormy wind
Its ova! Shit case closed no more fighting for beliefs
And its sad cause I’ve had this song in my heart for weeks
If I let u down I honestly didn’t mean for all ya to follow
A born leader on his knees, head down, this is a soldiers sorrow
I’ve been hit from nuclear weapons, to being labeled as menace
From time to time being used thinking my world will be replenished
With the goodness of heart, wisdom and shit beyond such treasure
But don’t get a nigga wrong leading my troops has been a pleasure
Jus remember I gave it my all to my last breath
And I hope the next nigga will finish this mission n carry out my rep
Once told history remembers Kings, not the soldiers of old
But I’ll tell u if it wasn’t for us Kings would have nothing to uphold
Grasp by there stern grip and call there own
A soldier is jus a King that’s mentally unknown
All I’ve learned I’ll pass to ya and hope for better
And when the dust from my bones is gone I’ll be able 2 still fly with ya feathers
I’m exhausted really this has been my life’s journey
I jus wish I could be that nigga ya really yurn 2 be
Is it in me shit wearing a crown wit no gold
And before I take my last breath there are secrets of this nigga ya need 2 know
In battle believe it or not I was always scared 2 go
A soldier’s deepest fear!
……Dying before accomplishing more
And for the last time I’m sorry but they win……I lost
Paid more then the cost to be the boss I take my crown and toss
I walk on this battle field for the last time staring at the sky
Jus asking God that one question that was always stuck in the back of my head…….Why!
Its painful but at the same time I can rest in peace
Knowing I left it all out here so ya can remember me
So as a soldier takes his last breath and last step on ground that’s hollow
I collapse wit all knowing and energy gone jus so ya can see….. A soldiers sorrow