Let it Be Beautiful

8/14/2017


Dear Pac,

Remembering every conversation back to the rejoin, now as adults
Like yo im still on the tricking shit getting tricked , just praying for real...
Like yeah that shit real, i guess i get that much
Just not how it was supposed to be
And then these moments of finally - then gone again - too many times
It was enough to fuck with any trust i had held for anyone or any thing pretty much
Remembering that one line "remember that day when we said..."
Well, hell, that was ceasars war and im fighting so hard not to be the one out of touch anymore
Even though its easier... Like getting shot and how death was so eaay
It was the defrib and coming back to life that hurt so much
To stand alone and witness it all with nothing but assumptions and everything else im against... And such
Well maybe in forever you never forgave me
And im just trying to figure out if thars why its your angel i always see
Or can never lets us die or just be
I need you even though i know you never needed me
Its qll ll ever be
But you told me from yesterdays nut grows the strongest tree
Honestly... I just want to be free
And need to know - do you forgive me

(written in mental)

Sibcerely me, C (april)