Deadly Thoughts
Automatic's First OM
hiding no where to be seen, a mass murder in progress
first shot, dead-on, second and third, were flawless
shooting uncontroubly, each shot made his confidence bigger
feelin even more invincible with each pull of the trigger
breathing immensly, thoughts of pain and suffering filled his mind
takin aim, randomly chooses the next victim in line
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rewind, 2 years back, where the story all started
age of 17, living poorly, parents were parted
hard life, wanting every second of it to just dissapear
family, some were born, some died, not once did he shed a tear
hated life, depressed with it, looked to pain as a guidance
started bullying others as a form to boost his confidence
"it makes sense" he supposed, "why murderers kill"
"its not for the fame, the money, not even the thrill"
"they want a meaning in life when theres no other way to get it"
thoughts like that crossed his mind, "maybe one day i'll do it"
it wasnt worth it, made a decision to do something worthy in life, or
a painful death to hundreds is something that i have to strive for
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invested for months, months to years, finnaly saved up enough
walked his way to the rifle store lookin for something rough
found a gun, all black, matchin scope, looked ready to go
bought it, took it home, crawled under bed, placed it below
waited for the next morning, since that was the day intended
slept well that night, dreamed ahead of all the lives he's ended
morning came, out of bed, took out the gun from its rest
took out bullets, loaded it, cocked it, became very stressed
looked out the window, saw innocent people walking the sidewalks
aimed his gun on his first victim, then realized that minds talk
'dont do it' filled his head and erased all his emotion
but his will for a purpose in life re-ignited his devotion
looked threw the scope, hand on trigger, directed towards the head
started pullin, couldnt do it, realeased the gun, my mind lead
me into thinkin over the situation, either i do or not
sure i will have a meaning, but what if i get caught
finally, the thoughts in his mind raised their voice
"listen, its now or never son, make ur choice...."